.:: Grey Kitties ::.

My Grey Life, showing sadness when it comes to black and happiness when it comes to white.

END EVERYTHING WHAT WE HATE!

Aaaaahhhhh!! I hate UCSI so much! My life over there sucks.. Feeling like dun wanna continue my study there, but daddy didnt let me transfer to Japan.. He said i can continue my master there or whenever i want just AFTER I FINISH MY BACHELOR.. "We should not stop our study in the middle, we must fight to the end" was what he said last time which is so true.. I was freaked at first, but finally come to a conclusion.. "Make it as motivation!", my heart shouted. Then, i create a quote to myself:
END EVERYTHING WHAT WE HATE!

and since i hate studying there, i need to end it as soon as possible.. let's make it to the positive way. If i want to end it as soon as possible, i may not fail any subjects, just make it smooth since now.. I will fight for it! minna-san, ganbaruyo! XD


Btw, about my holiday, i enjoy it so much!! especially the weekends.. I meet my prince every weekends. So excited which makes me suffer every weekdays, waiting for weekends.. Is this L? i dunno, but i guess so.. =P just hope a heartbreaking thingy will never happens!
I MISS MY POLAR BEAR PRINCE!! xP

Janganlah menunggu hingga esok hari

Pada suatu tempat, hiduplah seorang anak. Dia hidup dalam keluarga yang
bahagia, dengan orang tua dan sanak keluarganya. Tetapi, dia selalu
mengangap itu sesuatu yang wajar saja. Dia terus bermain, mengganggu
adik dan kakaknya, membuat masalah bagi orang lain adalah kesukaannya.
Ketika ia menyadari kesalahannya dan mau minta maaf, dia selalu berkata,
"Tidak apa-apa, besok kan bisa."

Ketika agak besar, sekolah sangat menyenangkan baginya. Dia belajar,
mendapat teman, dan sangat bahagia. Tetapi, dia anggap itu wajar-wajar
aja. Semua begitu saja dijalaninya sehingga dia anggap semua sudah
sewajarnya. Suatu hari, dia berkelahi dengan teman baiknya. Walaupun dia
tahu itu salah, tapi tidak pernah mengambil inisiatif untuk minta maaf
dan berbaikan dengan teman baiknya. Alasannya, "Tidak apa-apa, besok kan
bisa."

Ketika dia agak besar, teman baiknya tadi bukanlah temannya lagi.
Walaupun dia masih sering melihat temannya itu, tapi mereka tidak pernah
saling tegur. Tapi itu bukanlah masalah, karena dia masih punya banyak
teman baik yang lain. Dia dan teman-temannya melakukan sega la sesuatu
bersama-sama, main, kerjakan PR, dan jalan-jalan. Ya, mereka semua
teman-temannya yang paling baik.

Setelah lulus, kerja membuatnya sibuk. Dia bertemu seorang gadis yang
cantik dan baik. Gadis ini kemudian menjadi pacarnya. Dia begitu sibuk
dengan kerjanya, karena dia ingin dipromosikan ke posisi paling tinggi
dalam waktu yang sesingkat mungkin.

Tentu, dia rindu untuk bertemu teman-temannya. Tapi dia tidak pernah
lagi menghubungi mereka, bahkan lewat telepon. Dia selalu berkata, "Ah,
aku capek, besok saja aku hubungin mereka." Ini tidak terlalu mengganggu
dia karena dia punya teman-teman sekerja yang selalu mau diajak keluar.
Jadi, waktu pun berlalu, dia lupa sama sekali untuk menelepon
teman-temannya.

Setelah dia menikah dan punya anak, dia bekerja lebih keras agar dalam
membahagiakan keluarganya. Dia tidak pernah lagi membeli bunga untuk
istrinya, atau pun mengingat hari ulang tahun istrinya dan juga hari
pernikahan mereka. Itu tidak masalah baginya, karena istrinya selalu
mengerti dia, dan tidak pernah menyalahkannya.

Tentu, kadang-kadang dia merasa bersalah dan sangat ingin punya
kesempatan untuk mengatakan pada istrinya "Aku cinta kamu", tapi dia
tidak pernah melakukannya. Alasannya, "Tidak apa-apa, saya pasti besok
akan mengatakannya. " Dia tidak pernah sempat datang ke pesta ulang
tahun anak-anaknya, tapi dia tidak tahu ini akan berpengaruh pada
anak-anaknya. Anak-anak mulai menjauhinya, dan tidak pernah benar-benar
menghabiskan waktu mereka dengan ayahnya.

Suatu hari, kemalangan datang ketika istrinya tewas dalam kecelakaan,
istrinya ditabrak lari. Ketika kejadian itu terjadi, dia sedang ada
rapat. Dia tidak sadar bahwa itu kecelakaan yang fatal, dia baru datang
saat istrinya akan dijemput maut. Sebelum sempat berkata "Aku cinta
kamu", istrinya telah meninggal dunia. Laki-laki itu remuk hatinya dan
mencoba menghibur diri melalui anak-anaknya setelah kematian istrinya.
Tapi, dia baru sadar bahwa anak-anaknya tidak pernah mau berkomunikasi
dengannya. Segera, anak-anaknya dewasa dan membangun keluarganya
masing-masing. Tidak ada yang peduli dengan orang tua ini, yang di masa
lalunya tidak pernah meluangkan waktunya untuk mereka.

Saat mulai renta, Dia pindah ke rumah jompo yang terbaik, yang
menyediakan pelayanan sangat baik. Dia menggunakan uang yang semula
disimpannya untuk perayaan ulang tahun pernikahan ke 50, 60, dan 70.
Semula uang itu akan dipakainya untuk pergi ke Hawaii, New Zealand, dan
negara-negara lain bersama istrinya, tapi kini dipakainya untuk membayar
biaya tinggal di rumah jompo tersebut. Sejak itu sampai dia meninggal,
hanya ada orang-orang tua dan suster yang merawatnya. Dia kini merasa
sangat kesepian, perasaan yang tidak pernah dia rasakan sebelumnya.

Saat dia mau meninggal, dia memanggil seorang suster dan berkata
kepadanya, "Ah, andai saja aku menyadari ini dari dulu....." Kemudian
perlahan ia menghembuskan napas terakhir, Dia meninggal dunia dengan
airmata dipipinya.


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Makna dari Cerita ini :

Waktu itu nggak pernah berhenti.
Anda terus maju dan maju, sebelum benar-benar menyadari, anda ternyata
telah maju terlalu jauh.

Jika kamu pernah bertengkar, segera berbaikanlah!

Jika kamu merasa ingin mendengar suara teman kamu, jangan ragu-ragu
untuk meneleponnya segera.

Terakhir, tapi ini yang paling penting, jika kamu merasa kamu ingin
bilang sama seseorang bahwa kamu sayang dia, jangan tunggu sampai
terlambat. Jika kamu terus pikir bahwa kamu lain hari baru akan
memberitahu dia, hari ini tidak pernah akan datang.

Jika kamu selalu pikir bahwa besok akan datang, maka "besok" akan pergi
begitu cepatnya hingga kamu baru sadar bahwa waktu telah meninggalkanmu.

Sayangilah dan kasihilah sahabat-shabat dlm kehidupan kita..

working life? i hate it when it comes to boredom.. =.=

Now here i am, in the office, doing nothing besides chatting and fb-ing.. gosh.. this is the 4th day working at PT. INOVASI KARYADINAMIKA as an assistant. but since there are not much projects being handled recently, i dont have anything to do.

Monday:
the head of the studio gave me 2 stacks of A3 sizes drawings and asked me to understands all of the symbols. after that pak Yudith (one of an interior designer) gave me a task to do a japanese gate according to the requirements by using autoCAD. i did it half way and went home when it was the time, 5pm.

Tuesday:
came to office and finished the previous task before lunch break and dont have anything to do until it's time to go back home.. bored.. :'(

Wednesday:
i was absent, having gastric at the morning and then went to senayan city to shop. feeling abit guilty not going to office, but din regret to do so. btw, i watched the D-13 with kevin and stephanie before heading back home.

Thursday:
online all the day! had offered all the designers a help, but all of them seems dont have some task for me.. bored, bored, bored.. T_T

Friday:
wearing a too formal shirt which made one of my office-mate said "rapi amet hari jumat. kalo jumat mah pake kaos aja".. but then still the same with yesterday.. dont have anything to do.. I AM FREAKINGLY BORED WORKING AT THIS OFFICE.. :( hope i will be given a task before this day ends.. ~_~

Saturday:
it's still tomorrow. have an appointment with Meryna (and Juliani, i think) to go to taman anggrek.. i wish everything will be just fine.. hope for some surprises too.. i love surprises!! :)

Kiamat?

The weather here is slightly cold. It rains everyday. It makes me feel in a bad shape. Argh.. After the fever was gone, i catched a cold. Now i'm suffering cough, influenza, and sore throat.. I hate this condition of my health. Somemore, i'll fly to jakarta tomorrow. I don't wanna bring this virus to my uncle house and spread it to my friends over there. :( Hope i'll get 100% well this night. I eat medicine regularly, so please please please God! Let me be healthy before tomorrow.. :)
Btw, i'm watching a show now at RCTI. It's about the marks of the end of the world a.k.a december 2012. The born of magic kids, global warming, men acts like women and women acts like men, meteor hitting earth prediction? Some magician said that it is the time for every deed to get the karma, other some ask us to stop doing bad things and told us that it can still be fixed before the time. Haiyah.. It shows like 2012 will really be the doomsday..
Individually, i dont believe that life will end that early. Maybe i'm just not ready to face the death. Maybe..
Heys.. I want to meet doraemon! I want to go around the world! I want to be success! I want, i want, i want! I still want a lot of things in this life.. (oops.. I'm so greedy! Haha.. :p )
Let's just pray for the best and do all the best we can..! XD

End of year holiday 2009

Hello, holiday!! I'm happy to b with u! LOL!! XD
Actually i've been in holiday since 2 weeks ago. I spent my 1st week at Malaysia. Celebrated holiday at sunway with henni, being a volunteer at UCSI in donation for padang earthquake event, went to bukit bintang for a quick shop with devi, and having last dinner at KL for 2009 with the indonesian friends..
For the 2nd week, i flew back to medan on 17th oct and spent 3 days there.. After that i came back to my hometown, pematangsiantar.. I throw all the stress and tension here until i had the 1 day to medan again yesterday. I went to medan with my family for photo shooting at professional studio. To tell u the truth, it's so so so so tiring of a day.. We even didnt have time to shop. From the studio, we went to hv lunch, got my bro's eyes and mine checked, went to uncle's house, and went back home straightly after dinner. Oh my, i forgot to tell u sth, in the half way before we reached medan, we stopped at bandarsono, tebing tinggi to visit my mom's uncle.. He is sick.. And bcoz he is not married, nobody want to take care of him. Finally, he ended up being sent to a temple where all the old people gathered. I was very sad at that moment, but i couldnt do anything beside smiling. At least i knew that he doesnt want to see a sad face.
When we were in the car, mom said sth to me, "u see..when people are not married, they will not have people taking care of them".. I know what she means. I've ever told her that i dont wanna be married, i wanna be an independent woman in my whole life. But it's just my planning. The only plan that will 100% work is God's plan, isnt it? I believe in faith.
Hmm.. Back to the main topic.. I'll have another 2 months holiday.. What? Too long? Yea, it's a long holiday, but it wont be boring.. Guess what? I'm going to jakarta this friday (30th oct). Waitt.. I'm not going there for 100% playing. I go there to work at an interior firm. This will be my 1st experience working!! Oh gosh, im so excited and my heart beats so fast.. One more thing is i'll meet a guy name Kevin.. Quite curious about this too.. Lol! XD
will update my story in this holiday when i have time.. Yihaaa!!

I hate her!!

Students doing architecture at UCSI should who know puan Zaiton is, right?
yap.. this morning was my final crit for design studio 2. i know that i was not well prepared for this, drawings are simple, not because i was not serious.. I love architecture. but nobody here can help me.. even the tutor.. i was not NOT COMING to tutorial, i came! but nothing much.. the tutor knew i was stuck with my design, but he wasnt helping at all.. he always acts like a very busy businessman, or maybe he really is, maybe he wasn't concerned about me, or whatsoever.. my tutor is actually a kind person, but it has no connection to the class and tutorial.. what is this, what is that? what is design?
okay2.. back to today's topic..
yeap. i wasnt well prepared for the presentation and i even din slept in 53 hours for both the construction and studio assignments.. but what's the purpose of asking me change course? CHANGING COURSE!! crazy!! she is crazy!! a lecturer is supposed to be the guide to the students, be the supporter.. puan Zaiton is a lecturer! but she dunno how's the way to be a lecturer. she seems so proud to be in architecture world where she can decide randomly who's NOT supposed to be in this course. hello... if u think that u are really that TALENTED, why dont u just get ur butt off from the UCSI office and show me what u can do to get the PRIZES out there.. i pity her. her life is full of complains.. ah.. pity you, pity you.. and pity me who's under her crit.. groarrr!!